to require a woman of fortune in his daughter in law; & I am sometimes quarreling with myself for suf::fering you to form a connection so imprudent. — But the influence of reason is often acknowledgedtoo late by those who feel like me. —

I have now been but a few months a widow;& however little endebted to my Husband's memoryfor any happineſs derived from him during anUnion of some years, I cannot forget that the in::delicacy of so early a second marriage, must sub::ject me to the censure of the World, & incur what would be still more insupportable, the displea::sure of M^r . Vernon. — I might perhaps harden my::self in time against the injustice of general re::proach; but the loſs of his valued Esteem, I amas you well know, ill fitted to endure; — and whento this, may be added the consciousneſs of havinginjured you with your Family, how am I to sup::port